His birth story actually starts 3.5 years before, with his sister’s. Sabrina was a surprise breech baby (head down on Thursday, water broke Friday morning and they told me she was breech at the hospital). And therefore a c/section. So making the decision for Ezra’s labor and delivery wasn’t easy. I know all the stats and risks for doing a trial of labor, c/section, and a long labor ending in a c/section. Eventually, I decided I would pick a day for a repeat c/section and then I talked to Heavenly Father and said (more or less), “OK, here’s the day. If doing a TOL (trial of labor) or VBAC (vaginal birth after cesarean) is in Your plan for me, it needs to happen before this day. If a c/section is the better option, that’s great, then here is the day...Read More
October is the month I would have been due, before my second miscarriage. July was my due-month before my first miscarriage. Thankfully, I’m pregnant now – well past the point I miscarried my previous pregnancies and due in February. I’m at the halfway mark of pregnancy! Only 20 more weeks to go, more or less.
Some of the harder moments for me are when someone asks me if this is my second pregnancy. And (other than for my personal medical providers) I just say yes. I want to say, “No, this is my fourth pregnancy, I lost two.” But I don’t because the situation usually isn’t appropriate for that.
I don’t feel the grief-pain acutely anymore, time has erased most of the sharpness. But sometimes I ache. Sometimes the memory of the grief makes me tear (pregnancy hormones don’t help)...Read More
1. Nausea (-10 points)
2. Headaches (-10 points)
3. Needing to drink crazy insane amounts of water (-5 points)
4. Because of #3 and a growing baby – needing to use a bathroom every 4 minutes (-15 points)
5. Almost passing out, at BugFest, in the shower, standing up, etc. It hasn’t actually happened, everything just goes dim and my hearing dims, and then I sit down. This whole increasing blood volume, borderline dehydration thing is cramping my style. (-20 points)
1. Emotional stability – seriously, strangely I’m more emotionally stable during pregnancy than with the monthly ups and downs that I usually deal with (+30 points)
2. Snacking anytime I want, even at 11:30 pm (+5 points)
3. Babies are easier to take care of inside instead of outside (+20 points)
- told by Lulu, while in the car
I want you to make me potion for my friends!
(What is the potion for?)
The potion will make the trees fly! Jesus is going to give us the potion!
(The trees will fly?)
Yes! The trees are going to fly and fly and fly, higher and higher!
(Where are the trees going to go?)
The tree is going to fly to our house.
(Is the tree going to eat dinner with us?)
No! We’re going to get home and go inside and the tree is going to be playing inside and we’re going to be like, “WHAT?”
Since I am both envious of Pinterest crafts and inherently lazy, I decided to make cupcakes and fill just 4. The idea was for Lulu to be surprised and excited to find blue inside her cupcakes and realize she was going to have a little brother and then we’d have a lot of adorable pictures to commemorate this event.
Viddy and I explained to a very anxious-for-cupcake 3-year-old that if there was pink or blue inside the cupcake then it corresponded to the sex of her little sibling. We got out of respective video devices so we could be ready for the BIG moment.
We gave her the cupcake after dinner. And she ate it very slowly. Nibbling here and there. We had to encourage her to take bigger bites.
FINALLY, she made it to the center. And we asked her, “What color is it?”
Lulu: “Um…. Nothing…”
Some days I have glimmers of unbelievable joy and peace. Today was one of those days.
I listened to Lulu sing, standing at the microphone in the primary room. She sang “I Am Like a Star Shining Brightly.” She sang clear and loud and I don’t think a choir of angels could have sung it any better to these mommy-ears.
I feel so much joy from parenting (some days). And those glimmers of happiness keep me going when I feel like I’m about to pull my hair out, or frustrated, or PMS-y, or feeling mom-guilt...Read More
Driving into church yesterday:
Lulu: I got married.
Me and Viddy: Um…. to who?
Lulu: I got married at the temple with Mommy and Daddy.
Right after getting home from work:
Viddy: I’m going to go up stairs to change, you can stay down here.
Lulu: NO! I watch a show!!
Viddy: Yes, just sit down and watch your show.
Lulu: NO! I stand!
Viddy: Ok. you can stand.
Lulu: NO! I sit over here, Dad! I sit over here.
Viddy (backing up the stairs slowly): Ok. Ok.
While reading her “born” book (her shutterfly book I made right after she was born):
Lulu (pointing to Mimi (grandma)): Look! It’s my sister!
Me: Your sister??
Lulu: Just kidding, it’s Mimi.
Tonight at bedtime:
Lulu (pointing to the picture of Jesus): Jesus loves me?
Me: Yes, Jesus loves you, and Mommy and Daddy love you.
Lulu: I’m in Jesu...Read More
I placed an Amazon order about two weeks ago. We’re getting a new mattress delivered and I ordered new sheets, a box spring anti-dustmite cover.
Oh. And some stuff for pregnancy. I was getting more nauseous. So I ordered some instant potatoes that are actually just potatoes. And some water flavoring things so that I could have some options other then lemon water.
I haven’t opened the box since it came, first it was because of laziness, and then stress, and then because I didn’t want to see it.
The mattress is being delivered tomorrow. I opened the box and I teared up as I carried the instant mashed potatoes to the food storage closet instead of to the pantry. Put all the sheets and such in the wash.
My pregnancy ended 6 days ago. I’m not nauseated anymore. I can stomach plain water again.Read More
I walked in, went through security (by the time I was done with this week I would have gone through that security checkpoint 6 or 7 times in 4 days). I made my way up a few floors to the Jury Assembly room, checked in, got a parking pass, and began my week as a juror.
I didn’t want to do jury duty. I don’t have PTO. I could make twice as much as they paid me for the day, in an hour of work. Financially, it was definitely in my interest to be at work.
As luck would have it, I was randomly selected to go in a courtroom, and of the 40 people in...Read More
In honor of the 100th blog post, here are 100 things you may not have known (or ever cared to know) about us.
1. Favorite Food: Tacos, pizza and anything with peanut butter
2. Favorite Color: Green
3. Favorite Destination: Wyoming or Dublin
4. He snores
5. He has watches all seven seasons of the West Wing at least 20 times
6. He’s watched Firefly at least 5 times
7. He has more clothes than Fannie, including a shirt he’s had since the 6th grade (It doesn’t really fit)
8. He has read almost all the Star Wars books
9. Viddy has eaten corn tortilla cheese quesadillas for 12 meals straight. Until Fannie intervened.
10. He goes to work in a t-shirt and basketball shorts. When he has to video conference he dresses nice from the waist up and does his hair