The more difficult parts of life

When I was younger, I spent entire summers in California. For some of that time I’d sleep at my dad’s parent’s home. They have 10 acres of land and during our yearly family reunion everyone would gather and pitch tents and eat together and talk and swim. I have never loved sleeping outside and I would often just sleep on a couch in my grandparents’ living room (I’m stubborn like that).

In the mornings, I’d wake up to the smell of coffee and my grandparents moving around, which was my signal to go and sit on the edge of the bed and talk with my grandparents. Me and my siblings and my cousins all had similar experiences. One of my cousins would always sit in a chair pulled up by my grandparents bed. Another would always sit on the floor against the wall...

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The Adventures of Oodle and Doodle

I remembered that I had some herbs that I’m supposed to be watering outside. So a week ago I went out to water my plants. And it became the day of bugs.

When I went to our water spiget and turned it on, the water was taking a while to flow. And then out pops this HUGE, HAIRY, legged creature. I may have wigged out a little. So I again went to turn the water on, and ANOTHER HUGE, HAIRY legged creature popped out. They were carpenter bees, which made me feel slightly better, instead of giant icky spiders.

I was a little on edge when I walked over to my plants. Sabrina was playing with our neighbor and I went to go look at my herbs and I see two fat caterpillars on my parsley plant. I jumped again when I saw two crawly bugs, but was fine after seeing they were caterpillars.

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So much eating… So...

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5 years

5 years ago Dave and I got married. We went to the temple, kneeled across from one another and were sealed together for time and all eternity.

And then…

2 moves in two states, we bought a house, had a baby, graduated from a graduate program, I became a NP, Dave started grad school, we had another baby.

I’m looking forward to 5 more years. And 5 more years after that, on and on forever.

 

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3 Months!

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Three months have flown by. Ezra is such a good baby. He’s been sleeping through the night consistently for the last 3 weeks. He sleeps from 7-6:30 in his crib. Occasionally he fights going to sleep and needs some extra snuggles or a pacifier replacement, but for the most part he goes to sleep easily. He naps fairly regularly during the day. I’m looking forward to a more firm nap schedule in the next month or so.

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He loves his big sister. He watches her and smiles at her. It’s perfect since Sabrina is more then happy to dance and sing and entertain an audience at any time.

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Ezra still likes his pacifier and to snuggle. He’s trying very hard to be mobile. He’s got the wiggle and pivot down. He’s very anxious to be moving. I’m not as anxious for him to be moving.

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He is very particular abou...

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One Month

Ezra is 4 weeks today! He survived all the snow and snow events – like getting home from the hospital in another snowstorm and our power going out for 12 hours due to yet another snow/ice storm. Hopefully, the cold is behind us and spring will be here soon!

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He has gone from 7 lbs 4 oz at birth to 10 lbs 6 oz. Apparently I don’t make milk, I make heavy cream. He eats every 3-4 hours, sometimes with a 4-5 hour stretch at night. He prefers to sleep flat and stretch his legs out, he doesn’t like the reclined newborn sleeper or having his legs swaddled up. He still gets swaddled at night to keep his arms from flaying about, but I don’t really swaddle him during the day and he does fine.

We’ve discovered that he’s very ticklish...

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Quiet Time

We decided that it would be a good idea to implement quiet time. Sabrina doesn’t nap and hasn’t napped in a year and a half. Well, she has napped twice in the past year – due to fever.

For my own sanity and wellbeing with a newborn (and because there are only so many times I can watch Bolt) I would like Sabrina to spend an hour in her room quietly playing. She has Legos, books, a giant Teddy bear, puppets, and more stuffed animals than is reasonable.

Honestly, I should have implemented this shortly after naps ended, but that would involve me being more organized.

Yesterday was the first day. She just sat on her bed, staring at the wall. For a whole 20 minutes.

Today, she “totally freaked out.” In the words of her favorite show Peg + Cat.

She acted like we abandoned her in the house, t...

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Ezra’s Birth Story

His birth story actually starts 3.5 years before, with his sister’s. Sabrina was a surprise breech baby (head down on Thursday, water broke Friday morning and they told me she was breech at the hospital). And therefore a c/section. So making the decision for Ezra’s labor and delivery wasn’t easy. I know all the stats and risks for doing a trial of labor, c/section, and a long labor ending in a c/section. Eventually, I decided I would pick a day for a repeat c/section and then I talked to Heavenly Father and said (more or less), “OK, here’s the day. If doing a TOL (trial of labor) or VBAC (vaginal birth after cesarean) is in Your plan for me, it needs to happen before this day. If a c/section is the better option, that’s great, then here is the day...

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Finding Strength in Grief : What I’ve learned after two miscarriages

October is the month I would have been due, before my second miscarriage. July was my due-month before my first miscarriage. Thankfully, I’m pregnant now – well past the point I miscarried my previous pregnancies and due in February. I’m at the halfway mark of pregnancy! Only 20 more weeks to go, more or less.

Some of the harder moments for me are when someone asks me if this is my second pregnancy. And (other than for my personal medical providers) I just say yes. I want to say, “No, this is my fourth pregnancy, I lost two.” But I don’t because the situation usually isn’t appropriate for that.

I don’t feel the grief-pain acutely anymore, time has erased most of the sharpness. But sometimes I ache. Sometimes the memory of the grief makes me tear (pregnancy hormones don’t help)...

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Pros and Cons of Pregnancy

Cons:

1. Nausea (-10 points)
2. Headaches (-10 points)
3. Needing to drink crazy insane amounts of water (-5 points)
4. Because of #3 and a growing baby – needing to use a bathroom every 4 minutes (-15 points)
5. Almost passing out, at BugFest, in the shower, standing up, etc. It hasn’t actually happened, everything just goes dim and my hearing dims, and then I sit down. This whole increasing blood volume, borderline dehydration thing is cramping my style. (-20 points)

Pros:

1. Emotional stability – seriously, strangely I’m more emotionally stable during pregnancy than with the monthly ups and downs that I usually deal with (+30 points)
2. Snacking anytime I want, even at 11:30 pm (+5 points)
3. Babies are easier to take care of inside instead of outside (+20 points)
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Lulu Stories – The Flying Tree

- told by Lulu, while in the car

I want you to make me potion for my friends!

(What is the potion for?)

The potion will make the trees fly! Jesus is going to give us the potion!

(The trees will fly?)

Yes! The trees are going to fly and fly and fly, higher and higher!

(Where are the trees going to go?)

The tree is going to fly to our house.

(Is the tree going to eat dinner with us?)

No! We’re going to get home and go inside and the tree is going to be playing inside and we’re going to be like, “WHAT?”

 

 

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